I have recently become more accepting of my obvious narcissistic and self-absorbed qualities. Timothy Speed Levitch, you might know him. He once said, in a more eloquent fashion than I can express that narcissism is inevitable. How can we not be so involved with ourselves when we are ourselves? Its seems like such a ridiculous thing to realize, but people shun their narcissism as if it’s a bad quality. I want to embrace it.
I will love myself and have enthusiasm for my existence, because if I don’t appreciate myself then who will? I find myself looking into the mirror occasionally staring at my non-beauty. In the past I would look at myself in disgust, but that is not the case anymore. I admire my non-beauty because it is mine and I love everything that is mine regardless if anyone else does. And with all this change people still view me as the same nice and thoughtful girl. I don’t know if I am still that girl but its nice that people still think I am.